Addicted

If I tell someone 

They’d think I’m gross

They’d shudder, they’d shrug 

They’d say “I’d never do such a thing”

I don’t tell you the times,

I’m so disgusted with myself too

Again and again,

I lust – I lust after after the opposite of good 

My mind knows it’s wrong

My heart begs me to stop

And yet here I am,

Addicted

I got addicted when I needed a break,

And no one was there – or so I thought 

I was naive, I thought I was alone 

So I turned.

I turned to the lies

And here I am,

Addicted 

Yet here I sit, 

I’m not alone,

Now, I’m surrounded by love 

Yet when I need a break,

Oh the lies!

They whisper in my ear

They tell me I’m alone

They promise the rush

The rolling eyes. The shrugging of shoulders

It’ll all disappear

If you just cave in 

The after thoughts 

They’re so brutal 

Self disgust, betrayal 

A hurt so deep, no one will know 

Why can’t I find,

A different kind of break?

Why can’t I resist, why do I always succumb?

Oh my friend, you’re not alone 

So many of us, are addicted. 

The Devils lies – they tempted Christ 

He knows that call of evil 

He knows the need for a break –

He was looking at the nails in his hand 

The blood oozing from his side

And yet He looked,

He saw the big picture.

The big picture,

Was you and me –

Our addiction, our pain

All He wanted to do was save us,

And so He said no 

So that we can say no too.