Positive

Someone told me – or maybe everybody tells me

“Just stay positive, then you’ll feel it one day”

Positive… optimism… happy…

Oh please stop with the words!

I choose solutions, I choose life, I choose joy.

Yes, life hits me – oh it hits me hard

I simply stop, I stop finding the urge to smile

I stop feeling the urge to even cry

Pessimism isn’t what I feel,

I simply feel everything, and I feel nothing all at once.

Being positive won’t fix this, 

being happy doesn’t just work.

For me, I simply choose. 

It clicks – it’s like a button.

It’s a tiny button, one that I have a foundation for

After a while of feeling miserable,

God – my creator – gives me a light.

It’s a tiny switch, a switch to turn off and on

And all my life,

I choose life. I choose joy. I choose God.

Then I’m positive… then I’m optimistic 

Not because of me,

But it’s Him. 

Over and over again,

It’s Him.